Meditation: How I defeated my 20 years of anxiety disorder with 5 hours meditation a day ! The story. |
- How I defeated my 20 years of anxiety disorder with 5 hours meditation a day ! The story.
- You don’t get mad at the tree that fell onto your house, get mad at the storm that caused it to fall in the first place
- If your compassion doesn't include yourself, it's incomplete - be as kind and understanding to yourself as you would be to a friend who is suffering
- The purpose of meditation is not to 'fix' your thoughts or feelings.
- How often do your thoughts wander during meditation?
- Yeah i meditated outside and found spider eggs on my jacket
- What a koan is
- I've stopped meditating and it's noticeable.
- There is nothing wrong with feeling sad
- I don’t think I’m doing this right.
- What is your favorite mantra?
- Hi, what are things I might want to start doing in an effort to live more mindfully?
- How does convergent and divergent thinking meditation work?
- I'm a very happy man with so little to be happy about. It is the elusive peace of mind that has finally caught on.
- Hello readers , I have been practicing meditation from last 4-5 months however recently after taking a break for 2 weeks I restarted the practice however I can feel my heartbeat this time. Is this some kind of anxiety or something other. Is I am on right path?
- How to observe the breath without trying to control it?
- Anybody know of a type of meditation that really helps to wake you up?
- New to meditation. Any suggestions on a good area to meditate regularly within my new apartment?
- Why I need to meditate
- During open eyed meditation my eyes lose focus.
- If we’re not our thoughts than what are they?
- What is ego?
- Beginner help
| How I defeated my 20 years of anxiety disorder with 5 hours meditation a day ! The story. Posted: 05 Dec 2020 05:17 PM PST So in mid of this year I attempted suicide by drinking acid, I was admitted to ICU, battled death for 2 days then I was out of the woods, but till the date I have semi healed burned stomach. So how did I end up like this? From my childhood I am dealing crippling anxiety. I got this from my parent's abusive relationship. I still remember how I used to have panic attacks while going school. 24/7 Fear paralyzed everything. It ruined my relationships, ruined my physical health, my academic career..no body understood why I'm behaving like this sub normally, no body cares. So fast forward my ex thought it's actually my personality who is toxic and anxiety and depression can be easily handled, so left me saying my therapist that I'm toxic. It was devastating. So after getting discharged from hospital I found that my ex said the same thing again to my therapist knowing that I have attempted suicide that I'm toxic. It was unbearable for me and I got two brain stroke and lost my body sensation instantly. So it was enough for me, what the hell happening with me, I have faced anxiety all my life but during my ex it increased cripplingly intense and haunted me all day. I knew that I have to face it and defeat it anyhow otherwise I will not survive another suicide. 1- So why anxiety is a trap? I tried to find the answer first, I found- Stressful events increases the size of your fear center the amygdala and hyperactive it. So when you have constant stressful situations more that 6 months it temporarily changes your brain structure resulting hyperactivity of your fear center and emotional region shutting down or less activing your logical region of the brain. Anxiety is imaginary but far more intense that worry. That's why no matter how you try to feel good, you simply can't cause unless untill you change your brain structure you can't get out of this trap. 2- so how to undo the anxiety? I used to do meditation inconsistently, but I felt relaxed for short time when I used to do it. So tried to research what meditation does to your anxious and depressed brain? After reading lot of scientific researches on meditation I found 1- meditation normalize size of your amygdala size, the fear center of your brain and normalize it's activity. 2- it activates logical region of the brain more. 3- it strengthens concentration and focus related Neron paths. 4- it's hijacks brain to release happy hormones. Boom, that's what I need exactly. What you practice that persists. So I choose 3 techniques to practice. 1- mindfulness or present moment meditation 2- mantra meditation or transcendental meditation 3-bakti meditation or gratitude or compassionate meditation I read when you do these any one medication half an hour a day for 8 weeks it changes your brain. So you need 30-60 hours of meditation to change your brain cope up with your anxiety. I was impatient, I wanted to get rid of that awfull feeling at once so I designed 5 hours a day of q month meditation routine so it's 150 hours of meditation. I stopped my tons of medications to know wether meditation working or not. My routine 1- 30 minutes -60 m of pranayam (anulom vilom and kapalvati) Your brain cannt do advanced level meditation when it doesn't have tiny amount of patience and concentration, so pranayam doesn't need concentration but it kind of best pre workout to start meditation. 2- 1 hours of mantra meditation, it's like repeating a mantra and bringing back your wandering mind to focus on a vibration of word. 3- 1 hours of present moment awareness meditation, I used to focus different sounds arising in present time, like fan sound, sound of birds, passing by bike, any sound which is happening in present moment so I can teach my brain to come back to present moment. 4- 2(min)-5(max) hours bakti or compassionate meditation. A sound mental health is absence of mental illness and presence of mental well-being. So I was needed to cultivate a positive attitude to make my self immune completely from stressful event. That why I did gratitude meditation, I used to thank God for all good in my life. And when I used to be in public I used to pray God for wellbeing of each and every person around me like o God please take all sorrow of this old lady, o God please bless this love birds, o God please make today less painfull for this gentleman.....this is how even in crowd I practiced my meditation. This routine was not easy, first few days I felts more pain and anxiety, but I knew this is how my monkey mind is resisting for now but with constant practice it will submit to me. And boom after 2 months I was anxiety free, I no more feel crippling anxiety 24/7 anymore, no panic attacks no depression. I'm no longer taking medications.. still for prevention I live in present moment. I practice my present moment awareness meditation everywhere cause I don't need my suffering back. This was my story , after hearing my story, my ex was sorry and ask for forgiveness. But now I thank my ex that thank God we broke up so that I started my self transformation journey and now I have got my life back. ☮️🙏 [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 09:19 AM PST This morning this saying kept echoing through my head. Recently my girlfriend broke up with me and I felt lots of anger and turned to drugs and alcohol to cope Today I woke up and mediated after my first night of sleep sober in two months . During meditation this saying rung through my head with every exhale. I feel as though it allows me to understand that I can forgive her, but more importantly I can forgive myself. I hope this opens a new chapter in my life with a newfound respect for sobriety. Peace and love to all, have a lovely day ✌️ Edit: thanks for the love. I do agree. I shouldn't be mad at the storm either. It's all nature. People do as people do, some may hurt you, some may love you. Let it be [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 10:09 AM PST Compassion is something we find easy when we think of someone we love. But what about someone you find annoying or don't like? If you think about someone you've met who wasn't very nice to you, or someone that was rude or did something you didn't agree with, you might ask the question why would you feel compassion for someone who behaves this way. The importance of compassion isn't only to relieve suffering and make the world a better place, it's to free yourself from your own suffering - your sadness, your anxiety and particularly your anger. When you see the suffering of others in their behaviour it helps to reduce your own resentments. But where we can really struggle is feeling compassion towards ourselves; when we're suffering we sometimes punish ourselves more for not being good enough. Compassion begins with yourself - when you let go of the idea of who you think you need to be and accept yourself as you are it's an act of kindness that allows you to start to let go of suffering. [link] [comments] |
| The purpose of meditation is not to 'fix' your thoughts or feelings. Posted: 06 Dec 2020 12:13 AM PST When you embark on a meditation journey to fix anything, you are basically resisting what is here, in this very moment. Learn to embrace what is here even though it may be unpleasant. Counterintuitively, when you stop fighting and drop the resistance, real change often happens and if not at least it won't bother you so much anymore. Anyway, meditation obviously has many benefits which is awesome. Nevertheless, by always looking for 'improve' or 'enhance' a certain part of ourselves, we are in essence rejecting what is currently here. Let's learn to embrace reality as it is with all its flaws. This is NOT resignation or giving up hope that change occurs. You are not signing an invisible contract that says: "my problems won't disappear or I won't change for X years." Often, when you let go the real change and progress happen. Meditation is not a tool to optimise yourself, although that often tends to happen as a side effect. [link] [comments] |
| How often do your thoughts wander during meditation? Posted: 06 Dec 2020 01:29 AM PST So I just started meditating 2 days ago. 5 minutes at a time and hopefully longer as I get better. At the moment I'm terrible. Every few seconds a different thought comes in my brain. I'm just curious how bad you were when you first started? And how often a thought comes now you are more experienced? Never realised how active my brain is, excited to train it. [link] [comments] |
| Yeah i meditated outside and found spider eggs on my jacket Posted: 05 Dec 2020 05:18 AM PST That normal, dunno if i can meditate outside anymore if thats gonna happen [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 09:11 AM PST A koan is a device for halting the incessant thinking of compulsive thinkers. There is no knowledge to be gleaned there. That's basically the trick. To get you chewing on this fake riddle till you stop, and then have a moment of clarity. A moment of clarity is nice. (Now some of you might say, "But if you give away the trick, like you just did here, then koans stop working". Yes, I can see how that might be. But I'm counting on the fact that the smart ones will ignore my silly ramblings) [link] [comments] |
| I've stopped meditating and it's noticeable. Posted: 06 Dec 2020 12:59 AM PST Hey, for the past 5 years, I've gotten up early and meditated for 20 minutes every day I teach (middle school EFL teacher here). I've stopped lately because I'm just tired and want to sleep and my back hurts after a while of just sitting there. Also, for the first time ever, my son gets ready for school at the same time as me during the morning, so there's no place at our house where I can sit in silence. Well, on Friday, I was totally lost in my 1st hour of teaching. I recognized my class and the students, obviously, but I couldn't for the life of me figure out where we were in the sequence and it didn't occur to me to look at my lesson plans (which were completed as per my habit). It was weird. Anyway, guess I'll make the heroic effort of getting out of bed when the alarm goes off, hauling my unshaven, bathrobed, zombieesque self down to the living room, set my timer and sit and breathe as zen as Bouddha while my 15 year old chomps & sluprs away on his muslix. Namaste. [link] [comments] |
| There is nothing wrong with feeling sad Posted: 05 Dec 2020 12:15 PM PST If you feel sad when you are facing the negativity, then don't forget that there is nothing wrong with feeling sad. Since birth we hear sentences like ¨I want you to be happy.¨ Very lovely sentences, but also thanks to these sentences people start to feel even more sad when they feel sad because they get a feeling of failure. So don't feel sad about having a sad feeling. There is nothing wrong with feeling sad. Remember, you know positivity because of negativity. Originally from the free yourself ebook, which you can get for free via my text group [link] [comments] |
| I don’t think I’m doing this right. Posted: 05 Dec 2020 11:36 PM PST I've been meditating every night before I go to bed for the past month. I started with 2 minutes and am now up to 6 minutes. I try to focus on my breath, counting it from 1 to 10 and then going back to 1. I sit in a normal chair. But I don't feel like I'm doing this right. I usually break when there is 10 seconds left, and I never feel all that great. Is their anything I should be focusing on, anything I should be thinking about? [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 01:50 PM PST I have worked with mantra's some but, need some input from others that have more experience using them. What mantra's have been the most affective and transformative for you? Thank you! [link] [comments] |
| Hi, what are things I might want to start doing in an effort to live more mindfully? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 07:34 PM PST As of monday I'm going to be trying to start meditating every morning and I have been meditating occasionally and randomly throughout most days, but I'm going to do it in a more structured manner. I will be following the mind illuminated's teachings on meditation, and I also have learned some other practices about living in the present. I do not want to pursue a path that's too narrow, thus, are there any practices I might find benefit in doing? I generally do not stress much or have much anxieties or things along those lines, so I am primarily looking for general lifestyle changes that might aid towards the goal of living an ever-present life. (but more specific practices or tips are appreciated too.) Thank you. [link] [comments] |
| How does convergent and divergent thinking meditation work? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 11:16 PM PST Recently I've been interested in training my mind to become more creative (after dulling it with social media) and I've found these different types of meditation that theoretically fulfill that purpose. So, convergent meditation and divergent meditation, how do I do it? For divergence, Is it as simple as using a noun generator online and finding as many uses/possibilities of the result? For convergent thinking, is it just finding abstract connections between a set of words that I generate? I have an inkling of an idea of how to start, I just want to know if there are any effective techniques I can use to quicken the rate of growth. Also, would I be able to toggle between convergent and divergent if I learned them equally? They're two sides of the same coin. Divergent opens up the world to find possibilities while convergent closes it and ties it down to find answers and conclusions. If I learned both at the same time, would I be able to generate my own words and possibilities, and then connect all the dots to come to a single conclusion that I can now understand from a billion perspectives (while also branching off again to a different topic and understanding it through the previous understanding so I just have a big spiderweb of understanding everything?)? I'm rambling but that'd be cool. [link] [comments] |
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| How to observe the breath without trying to control it? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 12:41 PM PST Possibly the hardest task i've been assigned to do. [link] [comments] |
| Anybody know of a type of meditation that really helps to wake you up? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 02:48 PM PST My mom likes to tell me about sometimes when she's tired in the morning she'll just her usual mediation and she feels wide awake. But so far I haven't been able to get that out of meditation. [link] [comments] |
| New to meditation. Any suggestions on a good area to meditate regularly within my new apartment? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 04:11 PM PST Hello everyone, I've had a strong desire to practice meditating for quite some time and now that I finally have my own apartment, I was wondering if there were any tips on where or how I should set up my meditating area. I'd love to hear how you set up yours. Any suggestions or advice will be greatly appreciated. Thank you! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 02:30 PM PST I've been living alone on disability not doing much for years. I guess low mood and lack of enjoyment in things explains some of it, but in reality, I'm not a very focused person. I am 100% to blame for that. I have a wealth of things I could be doing at my age (26) but I'm not. If I'm not in bed just breathing, I'm pacing the floor, vaping, listening to music, or watching Youtube gaming streams and interviews with celebrities. Today my mom who's the only person I see regularly has unloaded her built up frustration about the fact that I'm not active. I might have to change if I want not to put strain on the relationship and lose her, and soon. My time is not organized at all. I never go to sleep or get out of bed at the same time, or make breakfast or dinner at the same time. I never cook an elaborate meal. I only clean for visitors, and then again not very well, and that angered her a lot recently (my mom). I hold off doing laundry until I have one shirt left. Sometimes I take walks, sometimes I stay shut in for days. I do things like read, draw pictures or take photos of things rarely because I don't like getting involved in them. I've been wanting to adopt a cat, but I'm afraid if my demeanour is stressed, the cat will get stressed. I brush my teeth once every two days. I let vaping with nicotine take over my life and as of now I need 180 ml of e-liquid every month to get by. I spend money on taxi trips when I should take the bus or walk to save money. I still buy cigarettes when the price per amount of nicotine is thrice that of e-liquid. And of course, since I have to try to be better, I have to think about how to be better. For me, part of meditation is medical. It's a medicine meant to clear the mind and reduce stress. Sometimes I hate it, sometimes I fall in love with it. And the other part of meditation is learning how to do something right. I need to meditate because if I don't, my life is gonna fall apart. It would, because it's one of the few things I think I can succeed at right now. I want to stop every day at the same time for at least one hour and be mindful, and it's been eight years since I've learned meditation exists and I've put it off completely because I'm lazy and I have low stress tolerance. I wanted to put this on reddit because I'm scared and desperate and my life hasn't been going well at all for me and my mother. Love you all. Feel free to comment. Edit: Meditation helps with getting things done because when I meditate, I feel less like a fish out of water, dumbstruck, later when I'm getting things done. Edit 2: I think part of succeeding at meditating is undoing the trauma of people watching you fall apart and doing nothing about it. [link] [comments] |
| During open eyed meditation my eyes lose focus. Posted: 05 Dec 2020 10:41 AM PST Im just curious if this is supposed to happen. Or if over long term it may have negative consequences to my vison. If you have any advice wouldnt mind the input. [link] [comments] |
| If we’re not our thoughts than what are they? Posted: 05 Dec 2020 05:12 PM PST I personally prescribe to the belief that we are not our thoughts or feelings But I'm curious then, What are thoughts? Where do they come from? [link] [comments] |
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| Posted: 05 Dec 2020 10:24 AM PST Hey all, I've been told by numerous people numerous times I should try mediation. I downloaded one of the popular apps and have been going through the basics for about a week now and I just feel like I'm doing something wrong. I can't ever concentrate on my breath, my mind immediately wanders, I acknowledge it and try to move on, but I just keep continuing down that thought. At the end I'm asked to note how my body feels and how I feel, and I really don't feel any different [link] [comments] |
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